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Friday, December 11, 2009 @ 10:15 PM
 Today, I found out the truth from my girls.Awfully sick truth. Like the picture, I was just covering up. Before I begin spilling out my emotions, I want to say my biggest apologies to Babyboy. Cause tonight, you weren't around to hear me out. So Blog's my listening ear. You won't like me talking about my past. But this, made me cry so bad. I couldn't help it. But thanks again for the afternoon. So as I was saying, my past. Damn it hurts so much to find out the whole truth at this point of time. This point of time where you're out of my system and I'm building a relationship with somebody else. I've pulled through just to know that I would fall again. I am still trying to accept the fact that all this while, I was at wrong. I am put through guilt. All along, I thought that that night, you hadn't stood up for me, you hadn't backed me up as a boyfriend. And somebody else did for me, somebody that was out of our league, my current Love. I was terribly wrong. I know now what you did, what you said for me. I figured out today that you stayed on though I've put you through thicks of dissapoinment. In return, I left you. I left you at the very moment you changed for our sake. Cause I just thought that you will never mean your words. I made rough decisions. I was selfish, I realised. But I explained why a break up is the best solution for us. You agreed too. And things cocked up more soon after as friends and again, as you were, I was disspointed too. I got more broken when you couldn't accept my apologies though I begged. Yes, I really lost my dignity there. I couldn't explain more how I felt today after hearing all the goods and bads from my girls. I never thought I would cry being over with you. But its to late now. We all know. I'm still shaken by the many things the girls said. Why this point of time? I'm happy for you. I wish I hadn't knew the fact. I wish you would have told me what you've told my girls. Somethings are just best to be kept silent. Truth is, I lied to myself, I had pretended. ❤ Sya |
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Sya. 18.
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