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Thursday, January 1, 2009 @ 12:30 AM
haixx..
great new year aint it? everybody's happy celebrating and im right here crying badly over you. how could you? noone can explain how i'm fylin right now.. this little heart is broken into bits of pieces. i don't know. im nt even sure it'll meant itself anymore. i'm in a very deep dilemma. how i wish this is easy and it'll be a breeze to make a decision. i don't know what to say nomore. i wish i could just disappear into thin air.. and this lyrics, is the only thing that understands me right now. 'Push me out from the darkness To a sky that's colored blue Somewhere someone's finding happiness While I'm still here so hung up on you Nothing is real And I want you to know That I'm not alright When you tear open my chest I'll try not to flinch Won't make promises You taught me that I'm still losing what's left out My self esteem And I'm still watching the slow fading of all my daydreams The hardest things to say are the words that mean the most So I'll bite my tongue til it bleeds and I doubt you'll even know The easiest thing to fake's a feeling to fool someone else And I've been tricked for so long by you that I spent these last few months in my own hell A failed apology A day too late but now I see That all you really want's to see me dangle neck first from a tree But what would you need me for You've got friends galore And all you'll ever be to me's a stupid lying excuse for a person I could call But I know that you won't be there to pick up the phone You don't have time for me I could call but I know you won't get the phone Don't have time for me I hate myself For loving you like this I hate myself for hating myself Just enough to love you Just enough to love you'  yea, right now, that's how i am feeling.. i have just enough love to go on with you..but still, how could you? poooofffffff! im gone.. |
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Sya. 18.
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